Good afternoon chaps. If you don't mind, please take a look at my thoughts written below, and every reply is welcome.
Some of you know that it is a tough period for me, some of you know some more, cause we talked at the MC weekend.
What 'tough period' means, did happen not only because of the financial trouble my coutry is (in reality it's in every country), but i feel it's about time to take some serious decisions, regarding job, family, area and relatioships.
Let's begin to tell the story:
Lost my father at 21, and i had to work. I was at university then, and i combined work with studies. Didn't much care about studies, all i wanted was (and is) to be well at my job. For the people who don't know, i run a construction company.
1) Worked hard from 21 till mid 28, where the crisis began her fro real, and for the last 1.5 years work is so much less. This thing kills me, cause i feel a very active man, i want to produce some work, but it's not that easy anymore. I am 30 and i really have dreamed of some hard work that will bring me a strong name when i am 40. This is the way i grew up, and i still feel this suits me.
I have tried to get involved with public works or maritime (shipowning and managing), but these things need time spent to get "in" the system.
2) I do not feel close to my family, we had some disagreements in several things. On the other hand i have some really good friends.
3) "How is this f...ing land working?And which way are we educated?"
Greece is to me the best natural aeria in Europe. Nothing can be compared to the islands, to the traditional villages or to the combi of sun/sea with this climate.
But the people...they are rude, they drive as if the road belongs to them, they smoke and throw the cigar out of the window, they park their cars by preventing the others to move, they are gossiping all the time, they refuse to work if mum and dad have some thousands aside, they live by their parents until mid 30 they have no respect, they want to cheat, they look their own good, not the good of the place they live or the society, they're all unorganised, total anarchy.
I am sure the whole world does not work this way. I have been to Germany and Austria several times, and have realised they're completely on the other side of the river in all the above things. The only dis- is that they are too depressed.
But they live in clean areas, give respect to each other, have beautiful environment, great buildings.
I feel this suits me better, i feel a stranger here.
4) Relationships: All the years before i have been with several women, not because i want to change them every X-period, but my aim since i was a child was to be with someone who could create a strong relationship. People here, men and women only interested in sex. Mostly women wear the "moral veil", but under that they behave like b!tches. As written before, everyone here wants to f@ck as more as possible, as if we're making a race or something. Sex has been a kind of persistence. they want to f@ck on the first date, the f@ck on the beach, on the couch, on the billiard, in the garage, in the car, on the contryside and goes on. I can understand we used to be a very traditional community and maybe all this comes as a reaction, but i believe that to be free, you need to have your mind working. Freedom means not i must try anything.
To come to an end with my notes, i have done all the things i am explaining on 3 and 4. But i am not happy. I think i belong somewhere else, in a different area, with more educated or culture oriented people. Am i dreaming? Am i wrong? Some years ago, people were telling me that beeing that absolute, i am not happy. It turns now that i was right by having my beliefs.
As you understand i am seriously thinking of moving on.Austria is a good goal, it's in the middle of my best wishing cities, not far from Modena as well . Let's hope i can figure my job out there.
To make a happy closing, here at SM, i have found some culture oriented people...hahaha
Your comments are more than welcome, thanks for reading.
Nikos
Some of you know that it is a tough period for me, some of you know some more, cause we talked at the MC weekend.
What 'tough period' means, did happen not only because of the financial trouble my coutry is (in reality it's in every country), but i feel it's about time to take some serious decisions, regarding job, family, area and relatioships.
Let's begin to tell the story:
Lost my father at 21, and i had to work. I was at university then, and i combined work with studies. Didn't much care about studies, all i wanted was (and is) to be well at my job. For the people who don't know, i run a construction company.
1) Worked hard from 21 till mid 28, where the crisis began her fro real, and for the last 1.5 years work is so much less. This thing kills me, cause i feel a very active man, i want to produce some work, but it's not that easy anymore. I am 30 and i really have dreamed of some hard work that will bring me a strong name when i am 40. This is the way i grew up, and i still feel this suits me.
I have tried to get involved with public works or maritime (shipowning and managing), but these things need time spent to get "in" the system.
2) I do not feel close to my family, we had some disagreements in several things. On the other hand i have some really good friends.
3) "How is this f...ing land working?And which way are we educated?"
Greece is to me the best natural aeria in Europe. Nothing can be compared to the islands, to the traditional villages or to the combi of sun/sea with this climate.
But the people...they are rude, they drive as if the road belongs to them, they smoke and throw the cigar out of the window, they park their cars by preventing the others to move, they are gossiping all the time, they refuse to work if mum and dad have some thousands aside, they live by their parents until mid 30 they have no respect, they want to cheat, they look their own good, not the good of the place they live or the society, they're all unorganised, total anarchy.
I am sure the whole world does not work this way. I have been to Germany and Austria several times, and have realised they're completely on the other side of the river in all the above things. The only dis- is that they are too depressed.
But they live in clean areas, give respect to each other, have beautiful environment, great buildings.
I feel this suits me better, i feel a stranger here.
4) Relationships: All the years before i have been with several women, not because i want to change them every X-period, but my aim since i was a child was to be with someone who could create a strong relationship. People here, men and women only interested in sex. Mostly women wear the "moral veil", but under that they behave like b!tches. As written before, everyone here wants to f@ck as more as possible, as if we're making a race or something. Sex has been a kind of persistence. they want to f@ck on the first date, the f@ck on the beach, on the couch, on the billiard, in the garage, in the car, on the contryside and goes on. I can understand we used to be a very traditional community and maybe all this comes as a reaction, but i believe that to be free, you need to have your mind working. Freedom means not i must try anything.
To come to an end with my notes, i have done all the things i am explaining on 3 and 4. But i am not happy. I think i belong somewhere else, in a different area, with more educated or culture oriented people. Am i dreaming? Am i wrong? Some years ago, people were telling me that beeing that absolute, i am not happy. It turns now that i was right by having my beliefs.
As you understand i am seriously thinking of moving on.Austria is a good goal, it's in the middle of my best wishing cities, not far from Modena as well
. Let's hope i can figure my job out there. To make a happy closing, here at SM, i have found some culture oriented people...hahaha
Your comments are more than welcome, thanks for reading.
Nikos
