*written in August 2023.*
TLDR: In hindsight, dipping toes in every avenue is great to start, but mentally exhausting in the long run. Do as you think is best for the situation that is your own.
Where to begin… For it has been a year since I have had the opportunity to express the journey I have begun; now be but a quick two years from the beginning.
I really hate writing; making documents, yet I challenge myself to simply do it, for I fear if I do not, I will never use it as the skill I enjoy. As my boss keeps telling me. Short and sweet, convey the message in as little words as possible. Something that doesn’t work in my ‘overthinking’ style mind. He’s like Kevin from the Office;
“Why waste time say lot word when few word do trick?” haha, boy, you’re all in for a regurgitation treat!
My last opportunity I was writing in the hotel in Seville Spain, on holiday. Bored out of my head, I had time to catchup but also prepare all the mental planning for the next few months, given I wished to have the car completed by January 2023.
A goal I had achieved, partially(car was driving); but you may ask. Why the silence? A few things:
After my last post, back in Melbourne, I was deep in getting everything going. I just redone my Polo’s steering rack as it was leaking. And with that replaced the original 5-speed to a custom 6-speed gearbox that I had sitting for a long time, cleaned everything. Did it all given the weekend after was ‘Day of the Volkswagen’ a show that everyone was looking forward to, as it is the biggest. It then was cancelled two days prior due to the heavy rains; yet the guys at the workshop were keen on having an event, so we hosted our own. I spent the entire Saturday sorting and cleaning my car to then be in an unfortunate freak car accident that was not my fault. This crippled my spirit entirely. Fast forward--->
Even though I had this Maserati running, it was not perfect. And I had spent countless weekends Jan-March trying to fix an issue after another. To complete it all; I am a perfectionist in this regard. My freedom would have in-turn give me the time to write.
But then I bought another project, one that I could not turn down… Another 3200GT
This spiralled itself towards self-destruction.
Personal self-neglect. Depleted energy. Mental exhaustion. ~Tiredness if that ever can be an excuse
I slowly began arriving late to work, and it would trickle into the rest of the week, month.
All problems which I have been working at resolving. Fixing temporarily before it launches me back.
Having travelled out of the country; seemed to kick the reset button for me. It let me know the sweet spot of just stopping for a minute and allowing myself to enjoy a bit, for life goes by too quickly. When there is comfort, we just cruise on by. Which I don’t like at all.
I am told consistently that I am fortunate to be where I am and have my kind of job, traveling the world a few different places at a time. But inside I feel a bit hollow and empty, an NPC because I am braindead from overload. Paired with the inability to combine my external endeavours into a consistent workflow, to readily achieve everything; this reflected on my character.
Situating all my ideas that revolve on my notepads, never having the time to begin has me drowning, for I know that if I do not start them now, they will never come to be and that is scary for me.
I failed to write this year.
I needed ‘off time’, which I could never really get. This is my own doing; for I am part of 5 families. My folks and my few friends that have come along the way, Engineering work(Mon-Thursday. 40hrs minimum and I’m the idiot doing overtime to make up for the lack of employees...), Mechanic-Workshop Work (volunteering every Friday-Saturday). The VW Polo Facebook community that I manage but fail to run it as I think I should and finally my friend Boris(I will get to this at some point). Dipping my toes into every avenue to have the best mentors and people around me, to be that knowledgeable mentor for those who come to me.
You can only become what you say you want to become.
I am now on a mental break holiday in Croatia, away from everyone and everything. Yet my mind still churns, and stresses over all the things I have left behind. Pursuing all my broken ends and endeavours as I simply have to. For the sake of everything I have started, I mentally must finish these journeys and get to the next ones.
So here I am.
A continuation from the bottom and front-end construction, which I completed in the last post.
(Give me a day. Hunting for photos and dealing with upload dilemmas where it just goes. 'OOPS. IT AIN'T HAPPENING!')
I don’t think I ever mentioned the interior; for this was the simple part of all the work. Other than removing all the AC components, back to bare shell status, in order to replace O-Rings, seals and tubing. Cleaning up the wiring mess that the previous owner left, and making sure it is taped up correctly again(I hate PVC electrical tape)
Carpets, but why?
I sorted the carpets for the interior as they were looking horrendous. I bought some thick black cloth and glued it down to all the noise dampening pads because they had this tacky state...
Also ordered interior removable carpets as they were on offer from a local company. Never got any with the car so why not eyy?
This allowed me to put the carpet back in and get the roof liner in and rear seats done.
Comfy once again.


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